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It's Friday! Time seems to be moving so fast. I'm heading back to Uni in 18 days and I'm really excited!! This will be my first summer away from home and it will definitely be interesting. I will be missing home because every summer my friends come back and we go out all the time; I also get a job somewhere (last year it was at a camp) and they are the best moments that I never want to end. I also have been home for the past 4 months (hence my anticipation to go somewhere else!) so I think it would be good for me to be in a different environment and to experience new things.

Honestly, this break was one of the most beneficial things I've done in my life (oh yes, living for 20 years is a long time). The fact that I made the decision myself made a huge difference. Sometimes you don't need anyone to tell you what your next step should be. All you need is to decide yourself that you are going to go away....and that you are going to go to that place in order to fall back in love with yourself...

I can jump, but asking me to fly is a bit too much.

I need to VENT. :)

Have you ever listened to someone who thought that their life struggles were worse than yours? No matter what, it seemed like their mind-frame is already set to auto-pilot?

When this type of mind-frame is set, it makes them see you in a different light and they refuse to see you for who you truly are. The sad thing is, and wait for it, they don't even know what YOU have been through.

"So how exactly are they assessing me" you ask?...

...Clearly through a judgemental window.

Most of the time if we get to know people we'll see that we might have a lot in common.

I'm saying that we need to stop and think that maybe this image one might have of someone else is something THEY want to see and not because the other person had been putting on a façade, but because it's what they are choosing to see.

It's frustrating. It's frustrating because no matter how hard you try to be the best you can, it's never enough for them and you realize that their expectations for you are just too high.

Unfortunately living life like that is only harmful because one day, and unexpectedly, that image will truly be shattered before your eyes...

There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything she puts her mind to...

There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn’t thrown off by obstacles along the way...

There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence comes from experiences - who knows she can fall, pick herself up, and keep going.

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This Got Me Thinking...

What

Would

You

Do

If

You

Knew

That

You

Could

Not

Fail?

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The Bigger Picture

I hate it when I'm discouraged.

Amidst the good things that could be happening in my life, when ONE thing occurs that turns my life around in a different way than I had expected, I simply feel like giving up.

Well, let me start from the beginning. I wanted to get a particular placement for a job next year (so it can jump-start my so-called ''career'' -- yaay to adulthood!) but the decision of taking a semester off has sort of scarred this particular process as I am not in the city at the moment. I had called the person to talk about the situation and my return to the city, but all I could hear was the voice of ''sorry...if only you had stayed" ...Really man?...

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."

I'm whispering "I was lost,

Now I'm found and forgiven."

When I say.. "I am a Christian"

I don't speak of this with pride.

I'm confessing that I stumble

and need Christ to be my guide.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"

I'm not trying to be strong.

I'm professing that I'm weak

And need His strength to carry on.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"

I'm not bragging of success.

I'm admitting I have failed

And need God to clean my mess.

When I say.. "I am a Christian"

I'm not claiming to be perfect,

My flaws are far too visible

But, God believes I am worth it.

When I say... "I am a Christian"

I still feel the sting of pain.

I have my share of heartaches

So I call upon His name.

When I say..! . "I am a Christian"

I'm not holier than thou,

I'm just a simple sinner

Who received God's good grace, somehow!

-Maya Angelou

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"When I say I'm a Christian" - My Diary

The poem above is so beautiful. For so long I had this image of what a Christian should be like or how they should behave, so I simply tried to avoid it. God finally spoke to me telling me that it is not by works that you are saved but by grace (Ephesians 2:8). "What does that mean?" I asked. He didn't speak, He showed me instead.

The image I had stuck in my head made me into a person that I shouldn't have taken energy to be. I was very stuck on proving that I was ''finally'' this Christian that was supposed to happen at one time or another. I saw that when I made a mistake I had to hide it.

I think the hardest part was after my mistake I would hear someone say: "why did you do that? I thought you were a Christian?", or the infamous use of reverse psychology: "You should do this for me, Christians behave like that".

How To Avoid Getting Hurt

If you were my friend, darling I would have a protection program for you which brings an army of large men to beat up everyone who hurts you...but 3 things:

1. Non-friends need not apply

2. Friends, read on...

3. I'm sorry friends but I don't have an army of large men. Yet.

We occasionally get hurt over serious issues and sometimes over petty things that shouldn't even matter. Either way, it's understandable that being emotional and vulnerable sometimes sucks...especially when you're getting to know someone.

During the beginning stages of a relationship with anyone, be it for a friendship or for dating, remember to apply a few ''rules'' in order for you to avoid getting hurt. Relationship expert, Kara Oh had 7 ideas and I think that they are genius! :) So my bb's check out her strategy after the jump!

I was watching the documentary series called 'If You Really Knew Me', which airs on MTV. For those who do not know the show, the program is about two people who head to different high-schools for a day whilst introducing a 'course' called 'Challenge Day'. These schools are full of stereotypes, bullying, cliques and prejudice; thus, the aim of 'Challenge Day' is to attempt to break those boundaries in order for the students to understand that they are actually more alike than they think.

I really like the show because it shows that just like real life, people tend to be more complex than the labels that are assigned to them. With that said, I also had a few thoughts and comments on it whilst I watched an episode:

Small Update

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I'm taking a short break from the hectic life.
-I woke up today after 3 hours of sleep in order to hand in my essay...

I Will Always Love You

"Watching you walk out of my life does not make me bitter or cynical about love. But rather makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person how beautiful it will be when the right one comes along."
-Anonymous

Have you ever really liked somebody and then you found out that there was something that you could not solve? Even if you couldn't solve it, you couldn't wait long enough to see if things would change, so your only option was to break up?

Have you ever broken up with somebody before it got too serious because you knew that if you were deeply in love with them it would later on be impossible to break up with them?

If I Could....I Would...Fly Away With You

"A man can't ride your back unless it's bent." - Martin Luther King

360 posts. That's my mission. Even if I write a sentence; I want to put it down on the page.

People have had such high expectations from me...and I've had to realize that I can't attain to them all...or to everyone. That is why, today, November 14, I'm living for me. I'm going to be real. I'm going to decide on what is truly important...what I need to do to get on by and to be with friends who truly love me for me.